Sunday, January 29, 2006

I got back bout an hour ago from running,and just took a bath. Mad right? But i promised myself to go running on Saturdays, so oh well, all in a day's work. Lately been doing my fair share of running, this week covered about 30k lar. Thankfully with every click I clock, its getting easier as I can feel myself getting fitter. But the important thing is sustaining this, especially when I am busier. But I realise the importance of keeping fit now, and with the VJO in action, I think the motivation is there as well.

Been keeping to myself alot lately, a lot of meals alone, exercising alone, and going home alone. I dunno why, but I guss I've just been in the mood of late, and don't realli feel like going in groups and stuff, although its fine of course. But being alone has its advantages. For one, u get to make decisions without feeling guilty and u are in total control. But of cos, after a while, a newpaper in front of you or a book is just never the same as a person whom you can talk and joke wif.

But more importantly, the long weekend is here so I'm realli looking forward to it. My parents and brother are also gonna be out, so its gonna be total freedom, being able to do what I want when I want to do it. Already borrowed 3 DVDs which I will review in due time. And of course there is Lost Season 2 episode downloads to watch. Woooooohooooo!

Anyways I need to take out an advertisement for a running partner soon with the following criteria:

Male/Female in their 20s
Willing to run at odd, sometimes insane hours
Lives close by
Committed but not over-competitive
Should be at same fitness level (so he cannot trash the shit out of me every run, even worse if its a girl)
Willing to encourage

Hmmmm, sigh too demanding, but I would imagine the converstaion I would have with an ideal running partner (let's call em X) will be like so:

Az: Eh dude, what u doing now?
X: Watching American Idol lar , aren't u?
Az: Yah man, super hilarious as usual, what u doing thereafter?
X: Nothing much lar, just perhaps go online
Az: Alright then lets go for a short run, maybe 30-45 min?
X: Sounds good man, I meet u at the Caltex in front after Idol.
Az: Aight man, see you, we go for a drink thereafter k
X: Count me in.


Solid right?

Then again u can barely get this type of ideal response from friends with some other activity like dinner or something, so wat more running? Singaporeans sometimes lack spontaneity I must say, cos we need like stuff to be planned out like shit-weeks in advance. Oh well.

Out.

Thursday, January 26, 2006

Recently running has come back to me as being fun again. Well it ain’t really fun as in happy-smiling, relaxing fun, but rather I think running is the best time to reflect on stuff and all that. Past 4 days have seen me cover bout 25 km, its not much lar, but it’s a start I must say. The fatigue is definitely there, but yah I think its worthit cos I’m really struggling less and less with the runs, which means im slowly but surely getting fitter. I realize that my body can respond to non-exercise in a rapid manner, and my fitness can deteriorate really rapidly.

But its ok, important thing is I keep at this. Have also changed my eating habits so its really much better. Looks like the really bad sore throat I had not too long ago really made me so scared of all things fried and deep fried, I remember when I decided to relent a few days ago and go and eat chicken mcwings, I swear I had the most uncomfortable sleep cos my throat was hurting so much.

On another note, we finally went over to train over at KC yest. I must say that the field wasn’t too good lar, but I think most importantly we had space, we had balls, we had markers and we had bibs. So we were really well equipped. And I planned my training well enough such that everybody was more or less moving at the same time. However, I think I must set aside ½ hour every training to let the girls play with each other to familiarize each other with their style. This I think will go long way towards them understanding each other.

Oh well, I figured dats all for now, gotta go and do some stationary exercises, which make up my Tuesday/Thursday fitness sessions.

Out.

Monday, January 23, 2006

Apologies, but its realli been a while since I blogged. So let me start.

One week in to the new year ones joining us and there are a few pros and cons, let me start with the good stuff.

We seem to have on our hands some precocious talents who can form the backbone of VJ Girls Soccer for at least the next two years. But well, judging from the massive soccer girls' presence at the recently concluded inter-house tournament, I think that we are on the right track. And furthermore, some of our better players like She Fong n Grace were not even playing. So we are defnitely achieving the strength in depth that we need in the team.

ON the other hand, the current batch of year ones has also produced one or two undesirable characters, which I wish to get rid off at the soonest possible time. Which will probably mean by the end of today's training, if they turn up at all. Having read Fergie's bio, I realised where I've gone wrong and how I need to send the right signals to the team, even if it means I have to be a bastard.

But overall all is positive, I'm setting myself a target of the end of Feb before shaping up the team enough and then going to play some games under our belt, currently we are still lacking in some areas, such as our speed of thought as well as the core strength of each player. This I have to work on.

I had agame for the VJO over the weekend, and suffice to say, it was the worst bloody game I've played in the longest time, although Lofty and marcus seemed pretty satisfied with my performance, naturally I'm not for myself. So I will continue to work hard, especially on my weakness and to regain my touches and speed as well, basically theres a need to start freakin peeling off the rust now.

Also business hasn't been going too well, with some rocking news coming in yesterdae from one of my main partners, saying that he doesnt wanna continue at least in the forseeable future. Oh well, I must say, disappointed as I am, I have to persevere, cos my dream is too strong for me to sacrifice for anything at all.

Overall I think things could be better in life now, but I will have to deal with it as I always do, at least doing lotsa running and having alone time is going somewhere towards solving the problems, as it has given me the peace of mind to actually think as to what I realli wanna do about the problems I'm faceed with. Went for an 8k run today. Wewll 8k minimum lar, cos I wasnt too suer how far I ran, but judging by the pace, it was def. no less than 8k. I was realli damn shack especially in the middle part, cos there was a lot of ups and downs, but ok lar at least im realli trying my best to get back some semblance of fitness.

Well, dats all for now. Training is later todae, so gotta put in a good session. Tak care all.

Out.

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

Home Sweet Home

I love my house, and I realli dont wanna move away from here, cos its all I ever wanted, peaceful, lots of shops nearby, open fields, two beautiful bodies of water. Hmm, some of you probably heard about me telling you about my house, but never had the chance to see it. Let me give u a slight view of the neighbourhood and what I mean.



This is the view of the road right underneath my window, nice warm lights, nice trees at the side(not too leafy just right), benches at the side, super clean, vagabond/mad people free, absolutely quiet. This was taken on the way back from supper with Azizul at bout 1225am. Realli feel at peace whenever I go up this road. And notice at the end, that its dark and all, dats cos there are no flats, just an open field, and more open grounds.

Brilliant.

Out.

Uniquely Singapore




The paradox of being Singaporean, always wanting to avoid people trying to take surveys from u and shit like dat? The bane of being a Singaporean is walking down a street and being approached by people who want to interview you or promote something from you or ask u for donations and stuff like dat, just like the two people above in red.



BUT, if its free stuff, such as the above, in the background, where they were giving away free packets of milk, people were flocking like hell to the stall to get the free stuff, even if they had to be stay for a while thereafter to talk cock to the promoters.

Same amount of time, same opportunity cost. The difference in the outcome?

Free Stuff.

Out.

I hate making cuts.

Yesterdae I think was a watershed day as it exposed me to a new hazard for being a coach, that is, making a cut. I had to cut the group from 26 to about 20, hence single-handedly cutting short the dreams of girls who had spent as much as two days trying out for the squad. So it was realli heart-wrenching for me. Personally I have never been cut out from a squad as yet, but I noe it hurts a lot, cos I've been cut out of a lot of other things, most notably in my whole NS experience. So when I had to break the news and tell people that their dream had ended, it realli hurt me personally, and I was wracked with guilt. As much as I knew it was something I had to do, I still took a while to come to terms with it.

But this is all part of being a coach, I will have to cut the squad again before the competition and I think that it will be even worse. But its something that again I have to do.

But on the bright side, now my squad size has doubled, and I'm very happy with the potential I see in the year ones, some of them are reasonably fit, and beyond one or 2, I dont see other giving me a very big problem, and even in reference to this one or two, it will just be prolems with the mentality and all.

I guess I just have to remind myself that as the coach, its very hard to be liked, its not liek the captain, when people look up to you. As a coach, you are there to be judged, hated and all. But important thing is dat all the players focus whateva ill feelings they have towards you and not towards each other. Yesterdae, traiing actually stretched all the way to 8, and for once not a single player went off, which was realli surprising, we did shuttle runs at the parade square, I'm not sure how many I made them do but it was enough lar. Yesterdae, I think was one of the more effective sessions I have had in trying to reach out to them and instill a team mentality, which was quite surprising cos I have been les than successful thus far. Basically what I told them was dat they wee always too silent when they did stuff, when perhaps using each others' voices would spur them on. Suffice to say, it somehow worked.

Saturday, January 14, 2006

Putting Things Into Perspective

I was in my usual habit of reading the papers in the toilet (while taking a shit) when I chance upon the aritcles about the cold and wet weather which has been envoloping most of South and South-east Asia. its actually caused by the Northeast monsoon winds which brought the weather along with it hence explaining the suddenness in which it came, and in which it left.

But anyways the devastation in the countries like India, Bangladesh and Indonesia, is realli realli very bad so I do regret saying how bad everything is in Singapore, when all we probably had was the occasional fallen tree and of course a super wet soccer field. Oh, but I did hear about some land slides near NUS and Bukit Timah, but luckily enough, no injuries or loss of life.

I guess the moral of the story i to always put things into perspective before moaning and groaning about one's poor fate. I think Singaporean's are most guilty of this, cos we tend to complain all the time about little stuff, which may seem big to us, but when put in a bigger picture will barely be noticeable. But then again, its all about what's around you right? I mean you do judge yourself based on wats all around you, and not wat is happening a oupleof thousand miles away rite?

Aahhh, the paradox of being Singaporean, I think sometimes we give ourselves too much credit.

Anyways sunny days are back again, so lets hope it lasts this time so dat we can all work up a bit more of a sweat while exercising, I know I am in need of dat.

Out.

Wednesday, January 11, 2006

Today was the trial for the soccer girls, and I must say the turnout was much better than expected and has given me the luxury of realli choosing from the best. I bet there are other better players but the important thing is I had a choice this year, as compared to last year. However, my pioneer batch of girls will always be special to me cos they are the ones whose had to deal with the most shit thus far.

The rain, after pouring like mad the past few days, and denying me of two opportunities to play soccer finally cleared up, though it wa just for a fewhours, cos now its started raining like shit again. Nonetheless it cleared up and allowed us to conduct the trials. Perhaps this was a good strat to the year. Anyways, close to 50 girls came to try out, with perhaps some more on Friday and it was a good trial, spotted a lot of good potential, the team that I choose will probably be bigger in size too, mnost of them are gonna tower over me, but whateva gets the job done man. But i think we are gonna have a good year ahead of us, the combination of the year 2s, together with the bright potential from the year ones, will ensure that we are gonna rock this year.

However, after dat I whacked the year 2s, just had to work them out, and i must admit that i made quite a few of them tear. But I realised one thing, from all the videos and readings that I've done. Coaches are there to be judged by his players, perhaps even hated. Its inevitable cos one cannot be a good coach if he wants to think about hwo players will think of him and such. Of cos that's important but at the same time he has to do his job and keep the team focused on the big picture.

Anyways, I got RN to talk to Mr Melvin Tan and we seem to be heaidng in the right direction with both her and VV, and of cos my other trump card BC, I think they will hold a very impt. role to our success. Perhaps, I think the hardest moment will come when I have to cut the team for the FAS tournament. Honestly lokoing at the year ones, quite a few of the seniors will lose their place if they do not buck up.




Lastly,I would just to lament that the bloody caltex near my place is fucked up at restocking, I have been waiting for freakin 2 days for the bloody CalBee Crispy Chips to come but as yet there has been no news and its frustrating. For those who havent tried this, to give it a shot, cos its realli nice, especially good to eat on days like this, where its all rainy and shit. Oh well dats all for now, I wanna go and rent more DVDs, cos looking at the weather I will probably be stuck at home, but the rain is a bitch, gotta look at the forecast for the next few days.


Out.

Tuesday, January 10, 2006

The past few days have been realli slack days, and the weather has been pure shit, today has been another rainy rainy day, all the way till about 6-7pm, though I still think it will drizzle on until tomorrow. Not much, if any of the island has seen any sun lately and its depressing too. Most importantly, the trials are tomorrow, and with the rain and all, I dunno where to hold the trials should the rain be heavy enough that we cannot continue. But the urgency in which i need to fomr the team is very pressing, I've got less than 5 months tops, and my desire to go for a medal position remains strong. But anyways I've spent the past few days watching a DVD every night, cost about 2 bucks from the nearby store, so I guess uts alright, I will prob spend the same on some dinner outside or probably more. So let me review 2 out of the 3 DVDs i've watched.




The first is the movie "Miracle" which stars Kurt Russell. Its a movie about the American Ice Hockey Team in the 1980 olympics. The team was made up totally of college kids, and the coach refused to take any NHL stars cos as he said he didn't want the "best" players. But instead he wanted the right ones. The American team was highly inferior to the Soviets and the rest of the Eastern Bloc countries and as a result they were written off as no-hopers.

But through the combination of hard work, as well as the brilliant mind games played by coach H. Brooks, the team bonded well and managed to beat the Soviets, and continued to lift the olympic gold that year. Amazing story, and the fact that it was true made it all the more incredible. I got a lot out of the DVD, and the story itself, even went to do my own reading up on the net. I hope I can get something out of it to bring to the team this year.

2006 will be a tough year, but I am intent on making it a watershed year for VJC soccer. Someday, we're gonna run onto the pitch with the terraces fileld with supporters, as defending champions of the National Schools. Sure it may sound lofty, ambitious, unrealistic, but you speak waht you want. And then you act on it. It all starts with your belief.




The 2nd movie I watched was "The Alamo" starring Dennis Quaid and Billy Bob Thornton. Its again a story about a bunch of rag-tag texans held out agains a whole army of mexicans from a fort known as the Alamo,and how they refused to surrender even thought the odds were against them. Of course in the end they were overrun by the Mexicans but the fact that they held out so long was amazing. And their heart in facing certain death was amazing.

"Victory or death" , indeed the spirit of a true warrior.

Oh well, I gtg return the DVD now as well as go to my uncle's place to go discuss some busines stuff. Hoep to get back by 11 plus before starting preps for tomorrow's trials.

Out.

Monday, January 09, 2006

A prelude - Standing on Shaky Ground

This was what was used as road along Paya Lebar Road. Yes cars, trucks were travelling on this, and there I was standing and waiting for the traffic light to allow me to move to more stable ground. Everytime a vehicle passed by, these metal gratings would shake, of course, with me on it. And what was below me? Construcion work which seemed to stretch on forever underneath. It was like something out of LOTR when the orcs and Saruman were preoaring for war.

Nevertheless the situation was very scary, cos I kept thinking about the Nicoll Highway collapse and how everything just crumbled. Nonetheless I trust the Singapore government have got our backs on this.

All the leaves are brown, and the sky is grey


Yesterdae was a fugged up day to say the least. Mostly cos of the rain. Well, first before anyone crucifies me and starts to talk about how we should be grateful cos of people in Africa...yada yada yada... , yes I guess the good thing was dat our reservoirs and canals are now full of water and should there be a world-wide sudden drought we should be able to at least tahan for bout a week.

But! I hate having very wet days, i dont mind the occasional drizzle type of thing, but to have rain lasting a day??? Proposterous. And I was outta the house going places yesterdae, first to Pasir Ris then to Ang Mo Kio. Although I was sore that I couldnt play later at night at Woodlands Stadium, least I didnt have to travel anymore. My socks were soaked, and so were my shoes. My jeans were also gone, and I usually wear them for a few days.

I couldnt wait to get home.



From inside the bus, which was freezing cold too btw.


The view from my place, thing is the whole sky was grey, it wasn't like a patch of grey. The whole damn sky was blanketed in a gloomy grey.

And what's worst is dat the same thing seems tobe happening again.

Trials how????

Out.


Thursday, January 05, 2006

Killing time.

Recently, I found myself finding a way to kill time, so I decided to go online to shop at the auction sites like Yahoo and Ebay. I realize that its realli something interesting and the numbr of bargains you can get there is realli incredible. Of course there are a few things to look out for should u decide to shop the 2nd hand way.

1) People who are obivously trying to make a profit, and overprice their stuff. While auctioning one must always remember that 2nd hand stuff are very hard to make a profit from, rather one has to cut his losses. So its always good to underprice and allow the bidding mechanism to naturally raise the price.

2) People who seem to give very good prices only for the products to be really shabby stuff. For example i stumbled upon authentic adidas shoes for 20 bucks? Took a good look at the pics and realised it was quite shabby and already quite well used. Every product has a life, so if it has been used quiet frequently, you have to learn to spot it. Of course sometimes, it may be a matter of intuition cos certain autioneers dont put pictures. Of course another reason why the price may be so low would be because they may not be telling the truth and the item may be fake.

3) Always be as specific as possible when searching for something in particular, cos plenty of people alwyas purposely keyword spam, as in they try and label their item with as many keywords, so a search would yield their item. Irritating. Just a search of Adidas apparel will yield 17 pages worth, of which more than half isn't Adidas.

So thats what I've been doing thus far.

Am looking forward to the tryouts on Wednesday, only problem being whether we have a field to work around. Nonetheless about 61 girls signed up, so lets hope at least 30 turn up.

Working with this CCA has been realli testing in trying to set it up and drive it forward. I could do with a bit more support from the PE Dept. but its ok, somebody's gotta do this thing and do it right.

Out.

Sunday, January 01, 2006

Alright finally back,its beena hectic weekend to say the least.

SMU Match was a great experience for all. But most importantly what I can take out of it is that the girls are slowly but surely improving. Ok maybe not so slowly. I think the basic fact remains that for most of them they are realli panicky when faced with a game-like situation. So let me give a lowdown on all 18 who played.

Charmaine
Did her job well, can improve on the kicks a bit, but overall she has developed a certain composure which I admire and she is starting to show some steady hands.

Wai Yen
For someone who has not trained for a while, she passed with flying colurs really. She made a brilliant save of a flick on header in the second 3rd. Beautiful moment.

So far i think these 2 keepers rock, and i wanna keep them for as long as i can

Shuyu
Shuyu played realli well, perhaps at times her pace let her down cos she missed a few balls, but I think she has really come a long way and will prove to be useful.

Salome
What can i say? Player of the year always does thejob well, and perhaps i might have pissed her off a bit by not playign her at the start, but Salome is a rock, i have always maintined this.

Sihui
Excellent on the right, except for the one time when she called her own handball, which was more funny than infuriating. But Sihui did her job and did it well.

Grace
Must have taken 2 million throw ins, but she did great i think. I like both my fullbacks. just need to be a bi more aware at times.

Bee Teng
I havent seen Ah bee in ages, but she did ok, as usual of cos, she thought she didnt, but I've sort of reached a point where i can only give so much encouragement and its up to her to change things herself. But Bee Teng has always been reliable without a doubt.

Rynette
My star performer of the game, definitely woman-of-the-match for me. Well timed clearances, she has definitely got the hang of playing sweeper. I like the way Rynette always does her job in a quiet but sure manner.

Audrey
Audrey is so FREAKIN talented, but i simply cannot get the best out of her further up the pitch. I will keep trying though, she always appears a bit lost when shes on the pitch, so I would say it wasnt the best of games for her. I think it may actually be because of the ankly thingey.

Alex
Alex is so blur sometimes! I was really a bit frustrated but in the later part of the game she was brilliant, she kept the girls at bay. Im reali proud of Alex, and she realli ran and ran until she coouldnt take it anymore. Great job by "Smith"....

Christl
Christl did her job ok dat day, not the best of days for her, but I notice that she still lacks a bit in the stamina dept. But i realise that Christl is realli strong, stronger than she realises, maybe cos of her gym days, and mostof thetime she can hold off her opponents. MY pledge is to keep working with her to make her a better winger, or maybe I might have to switch her to another position.

She Fong
My captain was a bit lost cos she kept drifiting inwards, which was not really what i wanted. Ive seen better days from her, maybe its the REs so cant balme her also. But nemind just gotta keep working at it.

Sara
SAra looked a little blur when she came on, but after dat she settled down a bit and played ok. She hasnt been training with us cos of the coming exams, but she gave a fair account. Needs to pick up on her movement though.

Rebecca
"Becs" was a bit lost on the left at the start but realli came into her own when i put her in DMF, realli credible performance and was her first time playing on field with boots and all. I hope she can come to VJ.

Tan Xuan
TX looked a but off colour dat day, perhaps cos she wasnt given much time to rubn at the defences. But i think she did ok. Can do better.

Vivian
Viv took a long while before she got my instructions. I think part of it sometimes boils down to her inability to trust the others wif the ball. But i think i should have played her in the AMF instead and played with two strikers instead. But the desire this girl has is enormous realli.

Wara
Wara has the skills needed to go far, but she is too static at times, i relaly need to workmore wif her on her movement and stuff. She can def become a good player.

Shi Ling
Anothercandidate for woman-of-the-match, she ran her butt off totally. Really reminds me of esmond and lucas in our year 1 season, two of them harassing opponents liek nothing like dat.Shi LIng did brilliant, but i always knew this girl had the heart of a lion.

SO dats dat for the SMU match, lots of positives and things to build on. Training is taking a break for a week for the girls to settle their stuff and all before our new batch joins us in week 2. But im happy wif how far ALL the girls have come. I promise to keep giving them my all.

After dat i headed straight for VJ, thanks a million billion to daniel for comgin to pick me up, in a jaguar some more, to bring me to school. we all had a smashing game and i felt so liberated to finally play, it was back to good old days of overlapping and crossing and stuff. And i did a superb over the head solkjaer trap, where on earth did dat come from? 2-0 to the old boys, job well done.

Nite time was of course the highlight, the 8th annual new year BBQ. And this year was brilliant! Syarif cooked up soem brilliant nasi goreng, and we even played soccer a total of 11 of us, for 2 hours from 1am to 3am. Of cos the police came to warn us, but who gives a shit! by then we already sat down to rest anyways. Love all the RI guys, and to Cecil, Jon and Rif, 3 of you are simply amazing guys whom i havea privelege of sharing so many experiences wif.

Overall its been a busy weekend but a most fulfilling one, spent a lot of time with different people from my trainees, to my biz partners to my good friends.

Out.