Looking for a light

Yeah, what a feeling it was today, it is still surreal man, and well suddenly my 2hr 15 min sleep seems justified. We did it.

The match was settled by a single goal by Stef, a looping ball which went over the keeper. That was probbly one of our few purposeful attacks, but well that is the raw truth about soccer, the ball is round, and nothing is ever settled until the final whistle blows.

After the goal, it was all SA all the way, realli bringing the game to us, and ur defence stood strong, literally like a wall which kept rejecting the ball and the attempts at goal.

But well, somehow when they missed a one on one, something inside me said, hey maybe today its our day after all, and yes it turned up so.

But the feeling of the moment is gone now, and its back to refocus on the coming match against Raffles, time to wrap up man. Phew I am realli tired now, so till later, gotta reassess the game now, I realise I always think better after a few hours after the match.

And here's to a good night of sleep.

Out.

posted by Me @ 9:11 PM 0 comments

Yeah, what a feeling it was today, it is still surreal man, and well suddenly my 2hr 15 min sleep seems justified. We did it.

The match was settled by a single goal by Stef, a looping ball which went over the keeper. That was probbly one of our few purposeful attacks, but well that is the raw truth about soccer, the ball is round, and nothing is ever settled until the final whistle blows.

After the goal, it was all SA all the way, realli bringing the game to us, and ur defence stood strong, literally like a wall which kept rejecting the ball and the attempts at goal.

But well, somehow when they missed a one on one, something inside me said, hey maybe today its our day after all, and yes it turned up so.

posted by Me @ 9:11 PM 0 comments

Wah shux, feel a bit shack today, cos the game in the afternoon was realli intense, there was a bloody winger terrorising the shit out of me, and a good combination of luck, a little bit of agression and some help from the touchline did help my cause lar. I later found out that he represented Singapore in FUTSAL at the tiger 5s and later played in the S League. Ok dat me me feel a whole lot better man.

But today I wanna talk about all those doubters to the team. Today Vivian told me that after he score was announced a few days ago, people actually came up to her and asked if it was cause we were good or cos NY was DAT lousy.

And I rem a time when Jaslyn told me her OGL actually told her not to join girls soccer. Can u imagine if she followed that fuckface's advice? Man.

I always believe dat if you dont wanna support a person from chasing their dream, at least dont take it away lar, and dats one thing I am grateful for my parents, cos they will let me chase it, whether i fail or succeed, they will at least let me try.

I hate people like this, and u noe wat, we're gonna bloody win this damn tournament, and then I'm gonna personally find these people and tell them off face to face.

This team is focused on setting things right, and making sure that everybody is proven wrong, dont mess with the girls, at least not this bunch.

Lets do this.

A comeback is on the cards.

And I'll see those assholes on the other side.

Out.

posted by Me @ 9:57 PM 0 comments

I am actually on the bus 15 back, and was too tired to read my notes, and was preparing my training plan for the coming week, so I shall start on my entry here. Today was a good win, though we are still tiring out towards the 2nd half, and I realize the squad is lacking in depth, well maybe its just my expectations, sometimes I have to remind myself that I am running a 1 year outfit, and not something which has been around like 10 or so years, but I am looking forward to dat happening of cos.

I think everybody played well, especially my vice cap Jas, who scored a goal any guy would be proud off. But perhaps the best thing to note was Mr tan being there, at first I thought the girls would be more nervous, but Tan always has a way wif the ladies lar, in fact I think the r’ship between him and the girls have improved a lot, from last year. OF cos this is us winning, so cannot judge too early, since the guys team has lost less than 5 games in competition in the last 6 years.

Ok I gotta get off the bus, will continue in a short while.

Ok I am back, just had my dinner, at close to 12mn. Well all in all it is a nice night to rest, finally can get one proper night of sleep, though the next 9 nights will be back to normal, brain storming, strategizing, well stuff I enjoy anyways. Plus assignments are due in 3 weeks time, yukz.

Well to all the girls reading this, it was all you man, all you. I am very proud of you guys. Have a good night, but after dat refocus back on our next final.

Part 1 of the 4 episode comeback has just been screened.

Stay tuned for episode 2 on the 29th.

Out.

posted by Me @ 12:04 AM 0 comments

I am actually on the bus 15 back, and was too tired to read my notes, and was preparing my training plan for the coming week, so I shall start on my entry here. Today was a good win, though we are still tiring out towards the 2nd half, and I realize the squad is lacking in depth, well maybe its just my expectations, sometimes I have to remind myself that I am running a 1 year outfit, and not something which has been around like 10 or so years, but I am looking forward to dat happening of cos.

I think everybody played well, especially my vice cap Jas, who scored a goal any guy would be proud off. But perhaps the best thing to note was Mr tan being there, at first I thought the girls would be more nervous, but Tan always has a way wif the ladies lar, in fact I think the r’ship between him and the girls have improved a lot, from last year. OF cos this is us winning, so cannot judge too early, since the guys team has lost less than 5 games in competition in the last 6 years.

Ok I gotta get off the bus, will continue in a short while.

Ok I am back, just had my dinner, at close to 12mn. Well all in all it’s a nice night to rest, finally can get one proper night of sleep, though the next 9 nights will be back to normal, brain storming, strategizing, well stuff I enjoy anyways. Plus assignments are due in 3 weeks time, yukz.

Well to all the girls reading this, it was all you man, all you. I’m very proud of you guys. Have a good night, but after dat refocus back on our next final.

Part 1 of the 4 episode comeback has just been screened.

Stay tuned for episode 2 on the 29th.

Out.

posted by Me @ 12:04 AM 0 comments

I woke up at 0426am today and haven been able to sleep since. This despite sleeping at 0100hrs earlier on. Dunno whats wrong wif me. And the best thing is I am completely awake now, reading up soccer notes and stuff like dat. Once I woke up I tried hard to sleep but just kept thinking bout Wednesday's match. Sometimes I wish I could turn time forward to match day so I can rid of all the anxiety,but well this is what being a soccer caoch entails rite? Still rem Rafa's wife complaining that he shouts instructions in the middle of the night when he's dreaming. LOL. Hmmm hope I wont do dat ever though.

I guess the first matchof the season always gets you huh? Its like a gate waiting to be opened, just unsure if it will lead you to a wonderful journey or to a realli terrible one. I pray and believe it will be the former this year, after all the heartache last year. First matches are always dangerous cos there is no form book, well there are no matches to judge one's form on so yeah. Secondly people tend to be much more nervous and not settle down, even your best players can seem off on the day. And of cos lastly, the feeling of being in unfamiliar territory will sometimes wreck things, all the preparation can go down the drain, if one is overawed by the whole occasion.

And having our first match on away ground does not augur well, I hope the girls can concentrate on the match and not all the noise around them, cos I am sure there will be plenty. We may have played a reasonable number of friendlies but dat will count for nothing if we fail to apply into this match.

I hope we can get a comfortable, confident-boosting win on Wednesday, but it all depends on the girls more than anyone else. Something tells me dat if we do, this will be the last time I am up at this unearthly hour.

Out.

posted by Me @ 5:35 AM 0 comments

Vivian.

I'm back!!!

Ok first of all, to set things straight, there was some cock up with my bloody comp lar, keep on saying that couldnt find my blog when I wanted to post. So lets have an update of stuff k?

Soccer
We had a match against Amirul's team, which we lost 10-2, but as I said repeatedly, the score didnt matter, overall we played in patches, and I always notice now that we are very strong in the opening third, this is similar pattern that I have seen in the past few games, so its both good and bad. Hmmm, oh well we just ahve to keep the focus I guess. But overall I think it was brilliant exposure for the girls, cos playing against guys is never easy. And they did a good job, I realli respect them for giving their best against the guys, willing to take them on. This can only make us better. And even though Mirster's team was filled with Mats, they were nice to the the girls, who looked brilliant in their new jerseys.

Highlight of the match was Mirster's sliding tackle on Jolyn, who was realli pissed about it. haha, I am so sorry Jo, he can be quite a cock sometimes, but i hope Viv helped you out somehow by body checking him later on. It was so funny, when he did the tackle, he was berated by both me and the team. haha.

GE
General Elections look to be coming up soon, and I am realli scared I may be deployed and as a result not be able to take the tea, during a critical period. Keeping my fingers crossed, and hopefully can pull some strings so I can get some time off for the team. Crossing my fingers for this.

On another note, I watched the dialog session MM had with some young chaps, and some of them were realli being rude lar, such as one of the journalists who kept on interrupting the rest, and even after the show ended, one could see her still questioning the MM. I mean cmon man tis is LKY we are talking about, the way he talks even at 80 plus year old, is still very very sharp. And all the ppl kept asking was if PAP was a bully, how ppl were apathetic to politics and hwo people were afraid of the PAP. I guess there would not be smoke withut a fire, but I must say the way MM answered it was brilliant. Even SMU golden girl, Elena was put instantly in her place, when I think she mentioned something about peoepl feeling for their country would be more bonded together with each other, to which LKY just replied if Thailand and Phillipines were bonded even though their ppl seemed to care so much about their politics.

Realli respect him man, one can just see wisdom and class oozing thru this guy. Complain as we want to, but as soon as we look at things in perspective we will all just shut up and realise that Singapore is a good country to be born in.

Oh well dats all for now,in my mind. The tournament is coming up soon, along with two assignments due as well as the kids' midyears.

Will be a major juggling act, but I can do this.

Out.

posted by Me @ 8:28 PM 0 comments

Hmm I read about Beckham's OCD, and realised that yes it can be quite irritating if you have to live with someone who likes things to be in PERFECT order. Then I realised, that there is actually some OCD in all of us, albeit not dat much in most, but closer to Becks in the rest. I'm sure there are just things that we all just HAVE to do everyday, that if we dont do will feel like something is amiss....Think about it whats yours?

My list (in no particular order)

1) I must check if all the switches in the house are off, twice, and also if the door at the back is closed.(this I am sure I got from my faher, who has the same bloody habit)
2) I have to sit on my "throne" in the morning before i bathe, whether I have anything to rid off, or not.
3) I cannot eat without having anything on TV to watch, or anything to read, as in no matter how hungry I am, will actually not touch my food until I have something to watch or read
4) My carpet has to be absolutely straight, aligned to the tiles in my room, dunno why, I always have to adjust it, until its like EXACTLY parallel to the tiles
5) I have to get an aisle seat in the cinema cos I'm always scared I have to pee during the movie, and funnily enough it never happens.
6) I always scan the taxi super carefully before I leave, so much so that on more than one occasion the taxi driver was bemused as to why I was staring into his empty backseat.


Hmmm well, so far dats all I can think off, thank god. I am sure there will bemore things dat come to mind soon enough.

Uni what have u got youself into???

LOL.

Out.

posted by Me @ 2:03 AM 0 comments

Okok I'm back, thanx to my eagerness to get an early night, cos I was doggone tired, from the past week, I ended up waking up at 2300hrs, and with absolutely 0 percent sleepiness. Shit hate this man. The worse thing is, I will prob be up by 8am, regardless of what time I sleep. Oh well its ok lar.

Todays training was spent on some physical work, and working on counter attacking, which I must say was a satisfying result, lately I have embarked on 2 policies, which are:

1) To keep in mind team morale before my own personal feelings, dont shout TOO much and only when necessary
2) To not be too close to any of the members of the team, to improve in me making more objective decisions, well not exactly improve,but rather make it easier to make such decisions

We are beginning to click, which is always a good sign as the season is rite around the corner, I cant believe after all the months, the hours, its FINALLY here. And well, Im looking forward to it and what it will bring.

On another note, things at BASS couldnt look any better, things are thus far inteeresting, and I am ahead of my work. Also made friends with a guy, hmmm I will just call him QB, who was initially very shy and all, only to find out that he is a 3-time SEA games gold medallist in wushu, not to mention also 6th in the last Asian Games. Discussion there is always about important pertinent things which I KNOW means something to me, unlike most of the stuff I have studied in the past gazillion years, safe to say, it looks like I made the right choice so far.

Alright dats all for now.

Out.

posted by Me @ 1:49 AM 0 comments

Today has been a rather long day, but I have a filling of fulfillment somehow, especially as I walked away from training this evening (no not because I managed to scare Stef and Salomee in the underpass) but because I was seeing what I wanted to see on the training ground.

Everyone was calm, relaxed and knew what to do.

Great finish by Jing Jing, Jolyn looking like she hasnt been out for a day, incisive calm defending by Audrey, Jie Min and Salome.

But well, as usual, I dont wanna think we're there or ready yet. Still a long way to go, but the important thing is dat we are heading in the right direction. Only worry is perhaps 2-3 injuries in the team.

First match is 11 days and 4 trainings away. An away match some more, and on away ground, not even neutral ground.

But its fine actually, my focus is to take one match at a time, one point at a time.

There is a quiet confidence in me, that is always being supressed by feelings of worry and wariness. Thats me i guess, always wanting to be over-prepared.

God be with us.

Out.

posted by Me @ 12:44 AM 0 comments

I mean in the morning its perfectly fine, but within a few hours, its like doonsday rain, lots of thunder and lightning, mini flooding occuring everywhere, my shoes were soaked yesterdae, and so were my pants, had to go home in the same thing I trained in yesterdae. Cock up sia. And the thing is, there has been no news as to when the end will be in sight, which sux btw.

I think the worse thing is dat a lot of things are getting disrupted cos of the sudden changes in weather. First on my mind is of course training, wif about 6 trainings to go, we havent had the chance to touchthe field yet this week, or even last week, when we had to settle for a mini patch at ECP, with lightning threatening to strike us at any time. Of cos the boys soccer team has had their matches delayed TWICE cos of the rain. I hope this thing will clear up like TODAY or something.

I mean cmon lar, if its gonna rain, then just rain in the morn can? Dont give sun, and we have fucking hope and then it just turns completely something like a scene from "the day after tomorrow". Oh man, I guess things could be worse, like the floods in Belgium, which even broke throuh the flood walls and stuff.

The second thing I wanna talk about is the changes in VJC, the one that I came from 2001-2002, and the current 2006 in VJC. Some changes are good, and some are not so good.

So let me start with the positives.

1) The school environment is very friendly, very fun lar, and of cos Mrs CHan is a MASTER businesswoman
2) The soccer boys are like in an elevated position in school, the latest jerseys, exclusivity on the field
3) Much more room for the students to take charge, and express themselves, what was done on Aprils' Fool was unheard of in my time, and of cos, I mean setting up of CCAs and stuff
4) The IGLOO! The place is awesome though I have never been in it, too bad it was built after we left, we would have dumped the loft in an instant for that place

And what is not too pleasing

1) Short skirts. I mean cmon lar, if the girls skirts are already this short now, what will they be weraing in university? Its unbelievable lar, and cmon giev me a break, its not even like nice legs are in abundance in VJ, they are freaking endangered lar. Aiyoh, dont understand whats the fixation in having short skirts, I believe you should flaunt it, ONLY if you have it, if not nevermind stay covered up first. The thing is its the whole school, what used to be frowned upon in 2001, is now the norm in 2006. Oh well, maybe I should change my expectations.
2) Same as the point 2 in the positives, cos we are in a position where we can as easily be crucified by the whole school. Things were much easier when we were just like everybody else, and we were not put up on a pedestal by everybody. We played soccer cos it was hat we loved, and the cup was just a reward. Can u imagine the P actually questions TYH about the formation now? She din even noe what our formation was in 2002!
3) The attitude of the students. The students nowadays, are not afraid to say shit in front of you, as in they dare to go against you, to take matters in their own hand, its like when I see the interaction between the teachers and the students its realli different. Had a long chat wif lofty, mini and tan about this and all agreed that somehow the students today are less respectful in general.
4) The younger teachers. Slowly the difference between the teachers here, and people in Uni is blurring, cos thye are so damn young! I bet 50% will leave the career once the 5 years is up. Its sad to noe that ppl. have such mentalitis to a career, and dats why guys you have to respect TYH for this. Cos no matter how cock up he may be sometimes, he told me that he is still around cos he has the passion to do it. And well, dat you gotta take your hats off lar.

But I think despite all I've said, theres a reason, why I dont mind draggin my ass to school sometimes 5 times a week, and dats cos its VJC, and theres only one place in Singapore like it. Home is where the heart is.

Indeed.

Out.

posted by Me @ 10:27 AM 0 comments

I feel like fuck.

Dunno realli what else to say.

Oh yes, I noe wat to say now.

Enough, is enough...is enough.

Out.

posted by Me @ 12:22 AM 0 comments

Past few days have been crap. And it all kicked off wif the game on Sat, which I got very frustrated over, not because of the team performance overall actually, but because of lackadasical performances from certain people, and individual mistakes from others.

But after going back and contemplating and stuff on the way back(actually walked for about 45mins to clear my head), I realised all this frustration stems from something inside myself, I guess that desire to over-achieve is something that I have failed to rid off. Maybe I am just being unrealistic, maybe success is not realli an option?

I dunno, but I wanna belive so much dat it is, I wanna belive that we can do this, and do it right. But well, can it realli be done? Hmm.... I guess after all the hard work that EVRYONE has put in, we just dont wanna fail. Nonetheless,I hope that we all have leant something from Saturday, and that its back to the drawing board for me, some good things came out actually but there were more bad things that need to be solved.

Back to the drawing board man.

Out.

posted by Me @ 8:08 PM 0 comments