Thank(less)
Seriously sometimes its fucking thankless it realli is. There is a huge disconnect in me, and I dont reallli like living with it, yet what to do I dont realli think I can live without it as well. It sucks realli sucks and I just gotta get it out. I have had a sleepless nite, and im so tired but I cant sleep, not cos of anything, not cos we lost, or cant win a game, its just cos I hate it, I hate that disconnect that exists, I hate that I cant get the respect or care or understanding that is needed.
Somehow though, I know I am asking for it.Whats the use of reading so extensively but being unable to be it.
Kody
Hmmm, after much thinking I finally decided I will come back here, and try and write as frequently as possible in my last half a year here in Singapore. I dont realli wanna recap on stuff but just wanna say that im realli frustrated by all the stuff dats going on in the team, its realli shite and most of it i guess although cant be help, is still not very palatable to me. I realli dunno how next year is gonna be and i fear to think about it.
All i know is dat i dont want another 2007, pls not another 2007, i cannot take such a thing. its not dat i cant take failure, I think ive failed many many times, but i just cannot take failing on your own terms, meaning conjuring up your own failure, it WAS and IS still too much for me to take.
Right now, things are so uncertain, but one thing is for sure, come the end of May I will have to make my way cos I realli feel that I have overstayed my welcome in the school and in the country, and i feel it is just time i leave all this behind to find a truer answer and calling in life.
So just pls hand me the bottle.I think im lonely now.Out.
