Looking for a light

Ok let me tell u about the trip to bintan.

It was a rather horrible start, cos the trip there was awful, got on the boat, and we thought we had good seats, right in front of the t and all, near thefront of the boat. Turned out to be one of the worst. That part of the boat really rocked and rocked, up and down, and after a while I sgtarted to feel giddy. Felt like my stomach was going to my mouth, then sinking straight down to my guts. My cousin behind already collapsed by then, trying to sleep, my dad was in a bad way, so lets just say the environment wasn't too good. Finally got off the boat after what seemed like eternity, it was nice to see a welcoming party holding a placard wif ur name and all, made me feel quite important.


Our own bus! Look at my bro singing away. LOL!

There were 19 of us in all, and thus we headed to the resort on our own bus, and arrived there around lunchtime. The kids of cos, jumped in without further invitation, but i was feeling kinda lazy, so i decided to saty in the house, just lazed around, as if it was a typical day at home, even squeezed in an afternoon nap. Talk about maximizing the holiday.

My family brought shit loads of home-cooked food cos we knew the price that was rather steep, so had a good good lunch. Evry family cooked up something so there was variety too. In the afternoon, the women and my bro went to a nearby market while i continued lazing around in the house.


Trudging into the villa. Wouldn't you like to live here?

I forgot to mention that along with each villa came a complimentary buggy, so i became the driver of the day, since I dint noe how to drive and just wanted to feel the sensation. I must say that the feeling of depressing the accelerator and having youself move, the power in dat simple movement as you begin to pick up speed is tremendous. And I was only driving a stupid buggy. Haha, imagine if i could do it in a real car, too bad, that dream is far from being achieved.


My cousins are super cute!

Night came soon eneough and dat was when things started picking up. They actually perpared a cake for my birthday, which i thought was a very nice gesture, since I can't rem when the last time was dat i cut a b'day cake. We also had a BBQ to go along wif it. Superb.

Later me, my brothers, our cousin atiqa, other cousin ikhwan, my dad and uncle(atiqa's father) went down to the laserquest arena to challenge each other. My team was made up of me, atiqa, and my two bros, and the other team was the old dudes, ikhwan and some ang moh fella who joined us. SO it was 4 v 4.

There was a lot of trash talking, and he other team kept braggin bout how they were gona win. So the game started and after running around a while, i decied perhaps camping would be a better option. Found a desolate dead end corner and started sniping, had a lot of good shots, and took most of them.

Then the enemy found me, and suddenly i found myself completely cornered, with laser beams shooting from every gap available. I thought i put up a brave front and managed to hold off the attack. But soon enough the mathematics caught up and i was done for. With me down, and my team completely isolated, it was hopeless and i was done for. My dad and my uncle, thoae trash-talking jabronis, decided to launch a melee attack and force me out of the whole. Then i did it.

I farted.

"Eh shit, busuk, busuk, cabut, cabut!!(Eh shit, damn smelly, lets get outta here!!)" - My father

Man, talk about chemical warfare, not dat i meant to do it but well it just happened. Cover soon came and i survived. The game ended, and my team lost by quite a big margin. Disappointed but deserved it, cos we had no game plan, and didnt work as a team.

Evryboy went home with high spirits and we agreed to meet up the next morning for another round. Dat day me and my bro, with better knowledge of the grounds discussed till late about the plan.

We awoke more confident, adn raring to go, this time the game started and me and Atiqa stayed close. I thought we worked brilliantly, and she did well giving covering attacks, while i sprinted up to immobilise the enemy from nearby. I decided to alter my tactics and kept moving around, to snipe those fuckers.

When the game ended my uncle topped the group with an amazing 908 points. I think he prob topped the week. I was second but only with about 538 points but I'll take dat.

Back of the house, personal pool, tanning chairs, and if you look close enough, a gate leading to the beach and the sea.

The rest of the day was spent soaking in the pool, and i realli wished uni was around. The sea was absolutely beautiful, the waves marvellous, and the sand, so fine. One idiot was actually smart enough to drive his buggy into the sand. Cock. We then headed to some souvenir market where i bought some stuff for Uni, and boy were the Adidas bags there nice. Too bad i decided against them, since i have too many bags as it is.

We made our way back in the evening, and the trip was better, sat upstairs this time.

I'm really gonna miss that place, and one can only dream of living in dat kinda house. Sigh. Im definitely going back there again, this time wif more ppl, and wif my frends. Any takers?


My last view of the place. I miss it so much.

Today my valentine's day has been fantastic! The day started off with a visit to Uni's and we watched grammy's together. I thought the thing was, as always, bloody boring except for the performances. Jamie Fox surprised me with his excellent voice, I think he has come a realli long way since his days in the Jamie Foxx Show, which by the way was fantastic too. The opening act was great starring maroon 5 and franz ferdinand, which realli rocked. I love their songs.

Me and uni then headed to prince/jade cinema in bugis to catch constantine. To all you guys who have been finding that lonely spot to watch a nice movie with your loved one....that is the place.Its fantastic realli, not many people, plus the theatre thatb we were in, was probably comparable to Lido 1. Honest. Anways the movie was great, got a little confusing in the end, but I likde it nonetheless, Keanu Reeves rocks playing all this "the one" kinda roles, well constantine wasnt actually like Neo, cos he was a bloody chain smoker and all.

Oh forgot to mention we went to grab some chicken rice @ Tong Seng before the movie. Superb man, some of the best chicken rice I've tasted by a mile.

After the movie, headed over to Parco Bugis, here things got a little messy. Uni brought me to Levi's, wanting to buy me pair of jeans. But I was really reluctant cos it was sper ex, and secondly, I'm not realli a connosieur of clothes or anything....LOL. I felt realli bad for disappointing her, I think it sux on my part, felt realli guilty.Nonethelss, felt it was impt I din let her spend her money on something I dont like, cos it would just defeat the purpose. In fact wat was the point, since I think spending the day wif her is more than enough. SO things got a bit messy for a while.

But Uni's an amazing girl, and i lvoe her for dat, she was patient wif me today, and managed to understand things from my point of view. In the end I settled for a thick anthology of Baby Blues and Foxtrot. Cant wait to start reading....

After Bugis, headed over to Parkwy, to makan our dinner at Swensen's. Came up to about 40 bucks, which was alright I guess. had a good dinner, and the ambience was not bad, cos they turned down the lights and every table had candles, though spitefully I blew off ours before we left.

Then it was back to Uni's place. Uni was feeling quite sick by then, and both of us must have tried a gazillion positions in the bus to try and sleep comfortably. After wat seemed like eternity, we were finally home. I was too tired then, took a cab back, and here I am.

Wat a great day. Tiring, but super worth it. Thanx sayang.

Anyways today I learnt an impt lesson, never to put all your eggs in one basket. Sometimes, you become over-confident, over-expectant in a person, and in the end, ultimately u will be most disappointed if the person doesnt reciprocate. I realli hope i dont repeat this mistake again.

Here I am in office, my body aching. Yesterdae's basketball session was realli tough, and I did learn a lot through it. We played a 3 v 3 in the beginning, with two kids who were reali fancy, but nice guys none the less. I thought I played well in this game, and the one therafter, though after a while I ran out of steam. But I realised that I cannot lay-up even if my life depended on it, still learning I guess, hope that I can get better by learning from thiese mistakes. But plenty of times yesterdae, after managing to get into a good position, failed to capitalise cos' my technique in layign-up was screwed up, guess that must be a low point for me.

We then played a full court of 4 v 5 which I found equally fristrating, cos it was really hard trying to defend with four people, and inevitably, after a while, we all run out of steam, some faster than others. But whatn I enjoyed was the fact that it realli put me thru a good workout, I think I ran even more yesterdae, than in the week befroe, but I enjoyed every moment of it. Did a good basline jumper even though I could barely see the rim, thanx to my myopia, and high astig, which generally makes it even harder to see at night. I realli hope to get contacts soon though, its realli hampering my play now.

A flashpoint happened in the full court game, when Garf fouled Phil, who gave a little shout but nonetheless still carried on. I immidiately squared up with Garf, and for that few seconds, I had no intention in mind except to 1) give him a piece of my mind and 2) if the need arose, a piece of my fist. I started berating him, telling him that an "accidental" foul was still a foul, and had Phil fallen with Colin's arms still tangled in his, the consequences would have been much greater. Of cos I knew this, being a veteran of two rather fucked up arm injuries (Phil and Uni will know about this).

I must admit that I was the one who lost my head in tyhat instance, then again, people who know me know that in a game, I always look after my team mates, and weill be prep to stand up for them, though most of the time, it aint vice-versa, but its ok, cos I think some things in life, must be given UNCONDITIONALLY. But yah, i do agree, despite my good intentions in the case yesterdae, it was my fault ultimately.

But dats the beautiful thing about sport, cos at the end of the game, the first thing I did was walk up to Colin, shook his hand and gave him a hug (the "man" kinda hug guys), and both of us were ok, Colin even told me that it was just the Rafflesian Spirit in both of us, the desire to stand up for our team no matter what, that led to the confrontation. and Im glad the thing happened acgtually, cos on hindsight, if it hadn't I would prob still be pissed with Garf till now. Btw Garf and Colin are one and the same, we call him "Garf" cos he looks like Garfield.

But other than dat, it was fabulous night, I even managed a good reverse lay-up, ala DHS no. 4, but the impt thing is now, to keep practising and making mistakes on the way, so can learn. And of cos the contacts!!

Btw, rem the pics of the beggars at the mosque which I promised? As requested...


If you notice in background, the children I mentioned, wioth the plastic bags, if you notice the weather was really searing hot. The woman on the left with the stripes was the one bringing them around.

This is another picture, I managed to get, see the poor baby? It was so hot some more! So noisy...

Lately I've been a really confused guy, about Maju. On one hand, I enjoy the company, the ppl (well most of them), but well theres just something unsettling me and has been usnettling me for the past 3 weeks. Recap.

Pissed off like shit with the dedication of ppl in futsal, realli sad dat ppl dont wanna give 100%, either dat or their 100% is really CMI. Walked away pissed off.

Couldnt find my jersey, heard training was at 3, and coach was pissd even though he assumed and infd no one. Din even bother to come cos dont wanna see him.

Lost first match of Futsal(very unluckily i must say) and to make it worse, a good striker, due to some technicality. Fucked up. Walked away and din go to kick ball thereafter.

This coming week I have matriculation so prob wont be going for Maju, funny thing is, Im begining to feel less and less disappointed that I'm not turning up. I dunno why. Then again, I think I do. I realli feel that I haven done anything productive in almost a year at Maju, and wasting my time away. Of cos there are the perks like going out with Jerrard, and getting to meet regularly wif my RI frends, but wats more than dat? Any pot of gold at the end of the rainbow? All i feel is disappoinment. Disappointed at the stagnation of the club. Disappointed at the coach having diff standards for diff ppl. Disappointed at the lack of commitment. Most of all, disappointed in myself for inculcating all these bad qualities which I never wanted to have. I'm now bitter, angsty and stuck up. Which I dont wanna be at all.

On go to a better topic, the past 2 weeks have been spent watching bball during lunch. Some of the schools are not bad, esp the boys, who displayed some good movement last week. The girls have been ok, of cos Phil is there to watch Cheryl and Gilbert to watch Peiqi, haha for mejust go and enjoy lar, cant deny I dont like watchin girls playing sports, haha judging by my 3-week stint watching smu floorball where my dear uni almost almost scored!!! Sigh....almost. But its ok, I'm proud watchin her play. Anyways the bball has at times been god, there was a day when a girl did an on-the-move-marked-by-two-players-behind-the-back-dribble, which was amazing!! The SAC pointguard also has superb tenacity! Something Im seeing more and more in girls nowadays, ok not really, more so in smu floorball lar, must say that sport is a bloodsport, sometimes im grateful Uni doesnt play much, who noes what those ppl might do to her!

Anyways the last match is tom, and it will be the last afternoon me bert and phil will be spendnig watchin bball there i think. Its sad, not cos of the bball, not cos got no cheryl or peiqi for phil and bert to watch respectively, but cos these days will be long gone, and 3 of us wont be able to meet anymore.I guess its at this kinda times when life just goes by, and u realise your not getting any younger.