Looking for a light

I hate making cuts.

Yesterdae I think was a watershed day as it exposed me to a new hazard for being a coach, that is, making a cut. I had to cut the group from 26 to about 20, hence single-handedly cutting short the dreams of girls who had spent as much as two days trying out for the squad. So it was realli heart-wrenching for me. Personally I have never been cut out from a squad as yet, but I noe it hurts a lot, cos I've been cut out of a lot of other things, most notably in my whole NS experience. So when I had to break the news and tell people that their dream had ended, it realli hurt me personally, and I was wracked with guilt. As much as I knew it was something I had to do, I still took a while to come to terms with it.

But this is all part of being a coach, I will have to cut the squad again before the competition and I think that it will be even worse. But its something that again I have to do.

But on the bright side, now my squad size has doubled, and I'm very happy with the potential I see in the year ones, some of them are reasonably fit, and beyond one or 2, I dont see other giving me a very big problem, and even in reference to this one or two, it will just be prolems with the mentality and all.

I guess I just have to remind myself that as the coach, its very hard to be liked, its not liek the captain, when people look up to you. As a coach, you are there to be judged, hated and all. But important thing is dat all the players focus whateva ill feelings they have towards you and not towards each other. Yesterdae, traiing actually stretched all the way to 8, and for once not a single player went off, which was realli surprising, we did shuttle runs at the parade square, I'm not sure how many I made them do but it was enough lar. Yesterdae, I think was one of the more effective sessions I have had in trying to reach out to them and instill a team mentality, which was quite surprising cos I have been les than successful thus far. Basically what I told them was dat they wee always too silent when they did stuff, when perhaps using each others' voices would spur them on. Suffice to say, it somehow worked.

posted by Me @ 11:25 AM