Looking for a light

Feeling unlucky/lucky all at once

Life in office is realli fucked up now, I hate being left all alone in the other office, cos now im the only officer whose movement can be tracked by the ASPs.

I hate being on the outside, i dont speak the language, and now i'm being forced physically and mentally outside the circle.

I hate having to spend 4 months doing shit, and having the worst end of the deal thereafter.

I hate busting my ass off in TRACOM which counted for nothing.

I hate being the one sitting in front of the door.

I hate ALWAYS getting less pay.

I hate being the one to have a fucked up COS (Cert of service).

I hate it all.

SOmtimes i feel that things are really against me, at every turn of the road possible.Its such a lousy feeling, and lately, only ppl like Uni are keeping me going,as she always does.

But then as i was showering and cursing to myself bout all that i said above, i decided to stop and take a step back and remind myself that I'm blessed wif a lot of things.

Friends. Those that have been wif me since RI and VJ. The real ones of cos. And a best friend and soul-mate that i almost missed but fortunately found to guide me to where i am now.

A wonderful family who despite all the fucked-up ness, have a way of giving me their fullest support when i need it the most.

Food on the table, a roof over my head.

Among other things.

SOmetimes, i take so many things for granted, too many things for granted, and complain about so many things without realising there are other ppl that are worse off. Sure, some might say that I'm just trying to take heart in something and avoid the true situation but in truth im realli not.

I just don't wanna be one of those beings who walk this earth taking everything for granted, complaining bout the littlest of things, pampered to the core. Its realli not worth it.

But don't get me wrong, the workplace is reali realli a bad place.

Out.

posted by Me @ 1:13 AM