Sunday, August 01, 2004

So much for my happy ending....

As promised, here I am back home,typing my 12th entry in my blog. Today has been a tiring day in all, and tom I still have to go for a double dose of tuition. But first things first...lets talk...

NDP Preview 2004
Today we had ops for dat, i was suppose to be a staff aider, tried to make the most of it lar, created my own template and all, and eventually was manning the CCTV thingey, so wasnt so bored, so, i repeat, trust me i almost fell asleep around 4...didnt manage to walk around wif HOT and wear dat cool wireles thing but its ok i dont mind, had vincent to talk wif the whole day, and it was kinda enlightening to a certain sense, i just realised how cruel SPF can be, i mean hes quite a high-flyer to me, but ultimately i dont think hes got a promotion or will get when his tenure ends lar...
Vince my man, just leave k? u have too much potential to waste...
I remember him telling me dat he wanted to sign on so he could earn money, and i realli respect dat man.
Had a good chat wif phil the man on the way back from the stadium lar...the funny thing is we are usually the only ones talking in the van, and we are so full of shit!! but its ok man, somehow i dont care what people think bout me, as long as I act like myself....i used to be quite scared in the past but well its gettin less now....hahaha...

Uni
We talked for a while on thurs night, and somehow towards the end, i got realli tired and didnt say much, and she onher part just shut up too....it got realli bad, and i eventually raised my voice quite significantly wondering why she was just shuttin up....later on when we hung u she said she was sad dat we didnt have anything to talk about...
That is so untrue.
Wif uni i can talk bout anything in the world, and dat day was just one of those off days...i mean i dont think its wrong to just act tired once in a while, considering how well ive been hiding it with her just to make her happy....sigh now im quite paranoind bout talking to her...and havnt done so for two whole days...sigh...just stay tuned folks....

Scholars
Today two OMS scholars came into command post, heard em , saw em, and hell more than anything i envied them...instantly this idea came to me...
1)rich
2)got a chick
3)smart
4)good in just bout everything
5)realli lucky
oh well...one of em was i think bout a year or two older than me from RI, i rem his face....things are so easy for em...cos their path in life, and path to success is paved...with nice little flowers along the way...
Me? I cant even find the way out of the mess im in now....
Sigh...what will happen to me?
i realli dunno man....

oh well im a little tired now...so i shall make a move.... no doubt ive lived my life as a dreamer....
i just hope i wont keep just dreaming for the rest of my life...
so much for my happy ending....
Out.

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