Looking for a light

i will remember you...

In memory of tok,
 
Today i suddenly started crying to myself again...well i was watchin this program on CNA about the foreman who died in the Nicoll Highway Collapse, and they showed snippets of his son, daughter talking bout him and all. somehow what this only served to do was to make me reminisce about Tok, and how its been one long year since he's been gone. To this day i still regret not doing well enough in my As just so dat he would be happy. And i will never know if he wil be happy, or not. but i noe i wont....

Tok, even though u cant hear me and all, its ok, i just wanna tell you that u have always been an inspiration to me, and i wanna thank u for takin care of me all the way till i was in primary 3-4. Will never forget those days wif u at Blk 90, i think its so great that i work so close to it now....will never forget those tuition lessons at melville....tok, thanx for evrything, and i told myself the day u went away, that i will never forget u and and all that you've done, and i will work hard, so ull be prud of me...even though your no longer here, i will always feel you to be part of me, all the time u made me laugh with your funny antics....
and forever willing to give me a ride home....
this may not be important things, bit its memories like this which will stay wif me forever.
someday, if im grown up and talking to my kidz, i will make sure i mention u and how much u mean to me....u went too fast, but im glad u didnt have to endure any more pain.
Now the pain and regret is mine to keep,  but i will spur myself to do better and make u proud.
Thats a promise tok....
I will  not disappoint u again.
 
 so now my shirt is wet,
with sweat, tears and that odd bit of mucus from all the crying ive done at the laptop.
But its ok, i feel more at ease now that ive said what i wanted to say.
looking ahead...a tough week beckons.
but im ready.
Out.
 

posted by Me @ 3:31 PM