Looking for a light

hell freezes over

Relief
It finally is August 10th, the day Ive been waiting for for so long. Finally NDP is over. Finally I don't have to rush for Ops orders. Finally I don't have to do OOP's dirty work, or get scolded by Jimmy. Finally I don't have to wear full-U. Finally I can feel like me again.Phew.

ExcitementBeyond a shadow of a doubt I am excited at the fact that I will have more time on my hands in the coming 2-3 months. Hopefully the new SA HOT will come, and we will have one more extra hand in the office. Im excited for Uni, that shes starting school and all. And most of all im excited that I can finally have more time to do stuff like get that online job ive been searchin, searchin for more study funds, and of cos concentrate more on this blog...and hope fully try and brainstorm more on the WITS project.

Realisation
But then as always, when a person is about to reach the brink of happiness, he looks over the horizon and sees the dark clouds beyond. Of cos they arent movin' any closer to us...but we sure are to them. Oh well, I noe that sooner or later, work is gonna pile-up, deadlines will increase and loom closer, uni will be less free and I will be right back where I started. It saddens me sometimes when I think bout it but its all part of life. I believe dat u can never reach true happiness. True and complete happiness. Cos even when u think u have everything, u noe and realise the shadow of death looms around the corner, and u realise u will have to leave everything u have on this earth. Sigh.
Lets not be this way Azrul.

Im now listening to this song called "now" by switchfoot. Amazin stuff man, honestly I would love to hear the acoustic version of it. Its that sort of thing which can realli let u sit back and think of the past....
...jamming wif the guys...at qader's place late at night....
...lying in the loft before soccer...
...friday afternoons after school...
...getting ready to walk out...
...looking longingly as she walks past...
...that run in macritchie....beautiful...
...watching the DVD in the comfort of the sofa-bed as the mightn closes in...
...hanging with my classmates after school, playing stupid games...looking at the sky and realising that yes...things can be alright after all...

Those were the memories dat came to me...
sigh...i miss those days when things were simple, but we try our best wif wat we have...although me and phil sometimes feel we live in the most f**D up and complicated of places, we look beyond it and realise that things can still be alright.

Listening to switchfoot songs on a lazy afternoon is realli nice. I can just see myself lying in the porch with these songs on and fallin asleep on the beach chair.
Dreams.

Hell did freeze over. It will thaw soon. But I will enjoy wat is left of this time. Cheers to all at Ops unit. We deserve this break.

Out.

posted by Me @ 4:25 PM