Sunday, December 11, 2005

What is the right way one should look at his parent/s?

This question was on my mind today when I was reminded of a discussion that happened between Russell and Zhao Bin on the bus back from KL. Russell asked ZB if his father was his hero which ZB replied negatively to, and said that to him his mom was the hero. Rus was rather surprised to this reply, I could tell.

I guess it was lucky he didnt ask me then, cos I would have not given a very different reply from ZB, other than the fact that my mom isn't my hero too.

So is it right to feel this way? Is it right to not realli look up to your parents, to respect them but not revere them for their contributions.

Dont get me wrong, i'm realli grateful for all thier contributions to my life, but somehow, in recent years thier standing, or rather stock in my eyes has fallen rapidly. This is due to many things, but amongst the most major is cause they don't realli symbolise what I would like to be.

I dont wanna be somenoe with poor financial managament skills, I dont wanna be someone complaining about work 24-7, i dont wanna have a rather estranged r'ship with my children and not know wtf is going on in their lives. I dont want this. In short, in many ways I dont realli wanna be like my parents.

This is especiialy so with my dad, of whom I have a rich dad,poor dad r'ship with. beyond respecting him as a DAD, i realli dunno if i can respect him as a person.serious. Ive been going to my uncle for most of advice in life, and i trust the latter's opinion, cos despite what some other people may think of him, he has proven himself and is living a lifestyle I can only dream of currently. oh well.

But anyways, this problem is realli bugging me, cos try as i might, I cant get over it. Cant get over the fact that I cannot look up to my parents tot he extent that i want to.

Save my soul, God.

Out.

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