Looking for a light

Today was our match against the combined team of the BBall girls, and the PE Dept ladies, and surprisingly, there was even some male presence in the form of Mr Wee and another dude. Wat the heck, we lost 3-2.

I was realli downcast after the match, and I had so many thoughts runnin through my head that I actually left the team waiting for about 5 minuntes before starting my post-match briefing. Anyways, the match is not what I wanna talk about, letme leave that at the door, cos any amount of bitchin about it aint gonna change a damn thing.

But well, after today,prob won't be seeing the girls for quite a while, say 5 weeks? And dats quite a long time for me I must say. I will realli miss making my way down to school on afternoons and puttin them through their paces. Don't get me worng, I'm not a sadist or wateva, just dat I think coaching them has changed the way i see things, allowed me to apply the things I've learnt, and also make frendships and bonds which I never knew would happen. I think that all the girls, in one way or another, have changed my life some what, and I'm realli appreciative of them. All of them are as much players as they are little sisters to me, and I've learnt to somewhat look after their interests although I must say dat at times, I've not been a really good coach.

Coaching the team has been my greatest pleasure, yet sometimes its been my greatest pain. Everybody knows me, as someone who hates losing, in any circumstance. I accept losing, but I absolutely HATE it happening. And well, being wif the team saw me eating a lot of humble pie, and also swallowing the bitter pill of defeat a lot a lot of times. But somehow, I've learnt to grow from it. The determination, willingness, and the pure passion the girls have are like a drug to me, which drives me on, to continue coaching them. And without a doubt, I would gladly not have any CCA, if it would mean i can at least see out these girls, if not year after year, just these girls out till the end of 2006.

I never thought this coachin stint would mean so much to me, but it actually does, cos for that 2-3 hours dat i spend wif the team, I forget about everything else, no troubles, no stress, I get stress from the math itself of course, but thats better than anything else from outside.

Oh well, now dat the season has finally come to a close, its time to consolidate my position in university, to get my stuff and projects going, and to work on establishing the CCA for good in VJ.

Here's to success in both.

Out.

posted by Me @ 12:03 AM