Looking for a light

Well, its been about close to 3 years since I learnt I was spending my time in NS in the police force, and subsequently leading to a collapse of self-belief and my constant reminder of being a failure.

3 years later, and its finally here, my first day of school, my chance to be back on par with the rest of the human race. Somehow I knew in the police force no matter how hard or how best I tried I could never ever have any chance of going anywhere, and right now, well I'm finally here,bout 3 hours away from the first lesson.

And somehow, even after all the expectation, all the preparation, I suddenly feel realli super like shit now, maybe just nervous lar i guess, what with the quality of students in the class, i mean dont have to look far, kelvin and cecil are already here, so well nuff said.

But i think it'll be ok. I noe at least 3 people now in the same classes as me so its not dat bad. I've made my necessary preparations, and I've been telling myself, for close to 3 years now, dat I MUST MUST MUST not waste this chance. I already wasted the A levels, and well I dont wanna start about that, but a lot of shit transpired dat i regret.

Never mind though, now its time to look forward, my stationary is bought, my clothes are ready, PC is ready, notes read, and orientated to school already.

GAME ON.

Out.

posted by Me @ 12:35 PM