Looking for a light

Hello, I know its been a while.....

But something about me always tells me not to rid of this blog, things have been rather busy cos I've been stuck at school wif exams and shit. School realli sux, never expected it to be this way. But thank god its over....FOR NOW.

In the mean time though, time has been spent reconsolidating the business and getting things moving again. Also been busy wif the girls and soccer training. Seriously, sometimes I just wish I could train wif them 5 days a week cos it makes me realli happy. I realli dont care if i have to go johor to coach. Id rather do dat. Thats what living is about.

Have you ever considered if you are truly living life? What is living life anyways, I was just reading a blog, and one line realli rang true. It was mentioned that the end of one pursuit leads to the start to another. SOooooo, this hell that is university, will lead to the major rat race in the work place and by the time we end THAT race, we're already bout 55-62 years old. And by that time isn't it too late, would we still be able to spend time with our friends, out watching a game of soccer? Would we be able to travel the world, going to the best of places, maybe going to trek in Nepal or some thing?

I think the only thought in your head would be to sit back, kick back and relax and enjoy your retirement fund. But is it realli worth it? Is the amount of effort,sleepless nights, transport ,money, skipping meals, stress bouts, fevers, fights with the colleague be worth that few hundred thousand dollars or a million that you get after pledging your life in pursuit, in pursuit from the age of 7 till 62?

Is it realli worth it? Is life realli about grades, about promotions only? Would it be so if each of us had a few thousand dollars every month? We dont get good grades or strive for promotions cos we want it, we want the MONEY behind it. And thats what makes life realli meaningless, especially so in Singapore.

And for myself, I'm kinda sad that I have been in this system for bout 15 years already, and not getting any happier. Realli dunno how much longer I can last in this race.

But I've made decision to change my life.

Have you?