Looking for a light

I just got back from the match NYJC vs VJC. Well not exactly just, actually I got back, ate lunch and watched "What a girl wants" on HBO. Hahaha. Well, the bottom line is that the girls lost 2-0 to NY. But dats not wat worries me actually, cos the girls played realli well. Too mcuuch for me to say currently lar, but nemind i shall leave it at that. The NYJC coach actually came up to me before we left and said her girls didn't to win. Haha, first time that happened to me as a coach and I shall take it as a compliment. But seriously the girls did play their hearts out, and I am so proud of them cos of how far they have come since I first saw them, and I am very very happy with what has transpired.

Its so funny rite, how could I be saying this? I'm Azrul, a guy who absolutely hates hates hates losing. Heck, I hate it so much, and always take it so hard, so I dunnoe why I'm saying the above but I mean it. and thats why I'm loving wat I'm doing cos it has somewhat changed me a bit and I'm happy. Now I know what I wanna do in life. I do.

Haha as if I'm so old like dat. BUt working with the girls and for the CS project (Tiles That Bind) and of coure tuition always brings me so much happiness, cos I'm helping these kids and I wanna make a difference in people's lives.

I am realli facing a very certain prospect that Mr Tan will not continue the CCA, and its worrying me, well cos it means a lot to me, and all, as in everybody has put in so much effort for it, everybody, from WQ, to me, to the girls, to Miss Tan. Is it fair?

I mean he is pissed with the results,but anyways that was the precise reason why I asked him what was his direction in taking part in the competition. And he said, "for fun". Now here he goes complaining and grumbling. Heck some of these girls have barelytouched a soccer ball before, this, and I find it especially unresonable. More so because he is someone I lok up to, and because he has gone through this phase before. Why the VJC Guys Soccer TEam is where it is now is because of all the losses that have made us readjust and readjust till we find a working formula. But now Mr Tan pulls this kinda shit.

I dunno lar, but I'm gonna fight with every inch of my life for this thing to be upheld, at least for the girls, they deserve it. And I shall do my best. Right now I have outlined several key people to approach to push the vote over to my side, and I must execute this fast. Deadline is end of august.

But anyways, thats that lar, I really hope me and Mr Tan can see eye to eye and we can resolve something for this. I hope he understands, and I'm willing to put everything forward to get the job done.