Looking for a light

I am almost absolutely burnt out from my coaching stint seriously, and the thing is the overwhelming stress has got nothing to do with results on the field, performances, training or wateva soccer associated stuff but rather with the resutls of the promos.

Im realli gutted with certain results, which I am still unable to stomach.

Somtimes you just wanna scream, and ask why the effort was not put in despite the one and a half month break and the two-a-weeks. In america, the teams do two-a-days, here we were doing two-a-weeks.

But i think again and i realise that its my responsibility hence its realli my failing dat the results are like dat. I WAS suppose to be the coach,the big brother to take care and look after the girls, but even that I haven realli done very well, n because of dat I realli feel like a real failure now.

Seriously, and thinking about it, thinking about wat I could have done, realli makes me feel damn frustrated wif myself.

Dont get me wrong I am not looking for any pity or any "its not your fault" messages here. But I realli need to reevaluate how I do stuff, since evidently things are not going right.

My head is throbbing and for the first time in close to a year, i physically dont feel well, kinda feel blated, like wanna puke, not realli sure what.

I m gonna lie down and take a good nights rest. Realli need it. GOD pls pls bring me good news tomorrow.

Out.

posted by Me @ 2:11 AM