Looking for a light

I havent been this tired in a long time. Work realli piled up and i was cooped up at libraries all across the weekend. But the feeling when u finish it and the things get printed out, haha for the moment its the best feeling lar.

Today's match, hmmmm, I guess i feel quite frustrated by the whole outcome, sometimes i wonder if i'm expecting too much, and whether I should change my tact of things. But at the same time, I know what I'm doing is the right thing. I just hate it when people come and tell u stuff, as if they know the team inside out, when ultimately ppl. just wanna show face. Seriously, ppl sometimes just wanna butt in when things are going well, but when they are not, u are left to fend for yourselves. I guess thats the ugliness and truth of life in Singapore most of the time, most imptly, is to try hard not to make your way of life as well.

I guess I realli have a penchance of wanting to do things from scratch, I was realli inspired by the story of the Bhutan soccer team, and I think it'd be my dream to go to such far flung places and to set up a soccer program, because though victories may come far and few, when they do, it means so much more.

Also, I realised that in the past half a year, with school and all, been sticking a lot to myself, and my social life is quite restricted, not dat i realli mind, i was talking to Uni just now and I mentioned that my bond with her is for the moment what I can survive n, and what I need to survive on, I mean there will always be r'ships of convenience and all dat, but having her around as a soulmate is more impt and is enough. For now.

Also, I have to remind myself to not be so last minute in doing work, I dunno why but I just need that last minute, dealine is round the corner feeling to get things done feeling. Its very funny and stressful, but I just keep falling for it. So for the coming assignement on 25th I've vowed to get it done by 23rd so I can relax a bit, instead of camping at the library to get it done.