Looking for a light

I think ppl have stopped updating their blogs, most of em, wif the excpetion of ppl like hannah, pri and my brom have stopped indefinitely. Worst was damu who cancelled his blog, sigh....it was damn funny man.

Somtimes i think to myself, why do i always wanna win? Am i the only one who wants to win, and cannot stand losing? Then i began to realise that there are prob many more ppl somewhat like me around, judging by the srowd on sunday. BTW the tickets for the match, all 55 000 have been sold out in about a day, wow, thats faster than national day, and u even have to buy these tics, plus they dont have any goody bags and shit. Suddenly everybody is a lions fan, suddenly everybody wants a piece of the action. I ask myself, if the scoreline was 3-1 in Indonesia's figure would we do the same? If this was just a friendly would we do the same? Somehow the glaring fact that the chances of lifting the trophy is very very high has contributed to the large crowd. At least dats wat i think. Not dat its a bad thing, i mean when was the last time the stadium was filled? Not even when man u came to play was the stadium filled this much. But i hope to get an early seat to enjoy it wif the rest of SIngapore. But well, goes to show, we Singaporeans, sing when were winning. Im not that bad after all rite?

Lately Ive been sleeping at 2 in the morn and waking up at 830, eventually reaching the office at about 910. Crap, sometimes i feel cock for waking up so late and taking so long to get to the office. And the thing is i always have to rush thru the gates to make sure im not spotted. Thank god my supervisors (if thers one good thing about them) are rather flexible about this. Phew. But well i feel realli guilty about it nonetheless. My resolution is to start coming on time. Just 3 more months till the replacement comes.

Today i got a mail from SMU asking me to come for matriculation, and suddenly im peeing in my pants. Shit, as much as I hate NS, suddenly all the "looking forward to uni' crap is going down the toilet bowl. I guess as i mentioned to dawn earlier, i just hate new people, new environments, having to start new friendships, having to give new impressions, having to fit in. crap, now im feeling even worse. And wats more they want me to pay 300 bucks, like money s flowing out of my ears or somethin. Where am i gonnna dig up that crap?? Sigh, suddenly university life isnt such a nice pasture to head to after all.