No More
And then there were none.Today, at 4pm, Musso's life slipped right before me, albeit after a few gasping breaths, it just stopped moving and I knew he was gone, 3 days after his bro did.
I realli feel seeing the life slip out of someone is terrible, seeing his glassy eyes reminded me of the look on my grandpa's face a few days before he passed away. I cant believe I have not been able to get proper closure on his (my grandpa) death until now and I dunno why. But anyways yeah seeing the life slip out of Musso and Adolf in the past few days have been very bad experiences.
BUT, i believe that Allah has a plan for all of us, and in the midst of all the crap he made me see through some very beautiful things.
For one, I now have a whole lot of new-found respect for my smallest bro Amirul, and I have told myself to cut him some slack cos he deserved it. he realli looked after Musso like a kid brother, especially today and when I reached home, the one thing that caught my eye was seeing him reading the Koran with Musso in his lap. I realli could see that he was trying his best to revive Musso, and he was truly distraught he had to leave for a concert, and I told him he might not see Musso when he comes back.
Also for Azizul who has pulled through all this while for all of us, its realli hard for him to wanna enjoy his after-As holidays, especially so since he has only bout a month and a half before NS. So it was always a conflict for him but again he tried his best.
I think amidst it all, Musso and Adolf made us realise that the 3 of us are a good team, and I hope that we will continue to put in the effort to be so, at least if not for each other, for Musso and Adolf.
Its realli hard to convince myself that its not my fault that the two of them died, even though we realli did try our best especially in Musso's case. But I guess there are things to be learnt from this experience, as much as I wish it never began in the first place.
Either way, I will take the best out of this experience and try and become a better person.
Thanx Azizul and Amirul, even though I dont have Musso and Adolf, I hope I will never ever lose you guys.
Out.
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