Looking for a light

Sigh the past few days have been messed up at work to say the least. First things first yest I woke up at 0925hrs for work, and reached work at bout 0950, yo. IF it was the army I would prob be sitting somewhere scrubbing the floor or maybe carrying gunny sacks or somethin. My boss actually noticed me coming into the office and luckily he let me off with a simple "Next time give me a call, so I know nothing happened to you." I've also been rather tired the past few days, quite sleepy and all....sigh. Yest I had to rush off after OOP gave me a presentation to reformat, then he complained that the word size and all were not the same size....duh of course lar...some slides have to have more words right? cock...anyways he chided me a bit bout it, but I shan't bother to talk about it lar, cos nowadays going thru work is just pure torture, so I try to be numb to all this kinda things, that might not be so good for morale and stuff...but wat can I expect right? I am so screwed for my Certificate of Service, and as luck in my life would have it, it will prob cost me a few jobs somewhere in the future...but wat can i do right? Pretend to be enthu about work? Try and carry everybody else's balls? Sorry but I'd rather not, cos I dont wanna lead my life at the expense of others, especially so when they show you no appreciation at all...the sooner the next seven months pass, the better actually.

God

Lately, I've realli made a conscientious effort to try to bring myself close to god, cos I realise there's not many places where I can find solace in. It feels realli goosd at times, and I'm proud of myself with each passing day that I draw closer to God. I've really learnt, over the past 5 days, dat fasting is more than just not eating and drinking, in fact to me now, the hunger and thirst is barely there, except when Im running at the reservoir...instead its really more a time to devote to God. I think thats the true meaning of ramadhan, to really try and draw youself closer to god. Which i think I am slowly achieving. I find myself really passionate bout my religion nowadays...its good but scary at times, i dont wanna be somebody like jerry,for me, my thanks and devotion to god is between me and him, and not for the whole country to know. Btw read his last blog entry on the Idol website and you will noe wat I mean.

Bout two days ago, I had a chat with Ben online about Maju. And he said something that has stuck in me ever since.He told me that soccer is meant to be enjoyed.

How true.

I realised that I've barely been enjoying myselfat Maju. I cant stand the older players, and I dont see the use in paying ten bux to do nothing every week. We are but a club with no ambition, which sad to say, belies the qualities of the ppl who play for it. Week after week, my patience is slowly wearing down, I am very sure that it will soon run out. But till then, I will just, like all the ppl around me, wait and hope.

Life in NS

Sigh. Why does life in NS have to suck so much? Why does it have to be so damn unfulfilling? Crap, I will never forget these 2 years and 2 months when they eventually end.