Sunday, October 17, 2004

Wont somebody come take me home?

Today maju sucked. I decided to come early to do a bit of training wif Jeremy, thanx for coming early wif me man. We did a bit of ball control lar...was quite ok...

But anyways when training proper started i was quite frustrated, for a few things...

1) The guys wanted to do some training, but mini and fong like were quite reluctant in calling in all the guys...and was wondering why....I didnt realli wanna take an active role, since I had already told myself to stay int he background at maju, but well....so much for dat...

2) I had a horrible horrible 4 v 2 session. I have never been "monkey" so many damn times in my life. And to make things worse the lack of food was getting worse...sigh, I made a lot of lousy tackles, which I dont usually like to do, I'm not a dirty player and somehow I came across as dat todae...sigh....and i didnt even apologise, realli ashamed wif myself, didnt realli play well also...

3) I got very frustrated cos caoch has been chasing me for the feedback forms, so asked the guys to feel it up immdiately, which was kinda stupid lar, but was the best way to make sure i get the forms...I even raised my voice when damien didnt bring mine and his form, i even told him, "Dont waste my time" in a rather irritable, high-handed manner....sigh strike three...

In the end i left maju pissed and early....but i think i wanna apologise to a few people...

Damien, sorry for raising my voice man, i was being damn unreasonable, and sorry for the late tackle.

Justin,sorry for the late tackle, and forcing you to fill up the form fast realli stupid of me.

Jerrard, sorry for forcing u to fill it up too...

Jeremy, sorry for reading your feedback form out as a sample when earlier i said it was supposed to be confidential.

Damn. I think this training i screwed up in every possible way, I was impatient, irritated and impudent. And I didint even have a decent training. Crap.

Thing is, I am really down at maju, there seems to be no motivation and stuff....and I no longer have the zeal. Most of the time, my head is so low, its sweeping the freakin lousy field.

Funny thing is, as I sat at the bus stop looking at the 8 guys left, stroking the ball and playing attack vs defence I kinda wish I didnt leave.

I'm realli confused. Realli.

Out.

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