Sunday, September 05, 2004

You've Got a Friend

Frenz..are they all worth it?

Today I was thinking bout this as I was showering after reaching home from Maju and dinner with Jerrard. Are friends all that worth it? I realsie my weakness is sometimes putting too much into a friendship and then being disappointed when u realise that as much as u try to be all Pally and chummy wif the person, one cannot expect the person to reciprocate it. Hmmmmm....much like chasing a girl actually. =p This has happened to me more than once, and at the end of the day all I fell is unappreciated and all. But u noe wat, as Ive told those around me, often what makes u happy or sad is your expectation for something. But is it wrong to expect the same level of care and concern from the person dat u care for as much? I dont know realli.
Sometimes it jst gets kind of lonely and desperate when I think...."wait a minute am I going to get through life without proper good and realli tight friends?"
But ultimately I think bout all the ppl who have stuck out for me and bring much joy to my life. They know who they are. At times I attempt to draw up a list as to who my good friends are and then just as Im about to punch the keys in, I stop and realise...
I can't.
I wanna be good friends wif everybody.
Well its both my strength and my curse.
Ultimately as I ponder upon the many days I've spent trawling on this earth I realise that not everybody will turn out to be a realli good friend. But to those who have I thank them.
Its not easy being a friend(a good one at dat) to Azrulnizam.

Man, I'm tired, still thinking on whether to catch that damn england match....maybe....

Out.

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