Looking for a light

Today marked the second time we worked over 30 hours in the past two weeks. It started of well enough and we were doing well. I was part of the video team and intially we weren't activated as yet. However soon enough we me, phil and see packed ourselves into a car and hurried down to capture some action. Not bad actually. Sorry if you sense I'm holding things back here, but well I don't wanna spend my life locked away for saying too much. So do bear wif me. By the time we were 3/4 through it was past 1 in the morning and then me and phil decided to do the most outrageous thing ever. We changed up, and heaed to the gym. Yes, u heard it right, we were pumping iron and eating up the treadmill track at 2 in the morning. I felt kinda tired but somehow was realli determined to get something done with the free time I had. By 3 we had finished and I went down, lay the bed and took a nap for 3 hours. However, it realli felt like 30mins, before I knew it we were up again for the last stage. Luckily enough I willingly volunteered myself to hold the fort at the Ops Cell. Thought of blogging from there though but it wa super risky. Though well it was kinda intriguing, u noe doing something personal from the very heart of your HQ? Something u might find in those secret-agent double-crossing movies you see...Haha.....make believe.

Today saw the second group of 10 for Singapore Idol. I watched it from the comfort of Colin's place, where I had chosen to take my rest after the Ops. The groupwas much better but as usual there were your bunch of Jokers and of course the potentials. First up must be the Malay wannabe Haizad Imram...he sounded as my bro kindly put "like a goat". He was trying to do somuch and was trying so hard to milk the crowd that he forgot essentially it was a singing comp. And to make matters worse he was actualli tryin to make a dedication whilst being judged? Pathetic right? Nah...just typical Malay. As i pointed out in my earlier entry. Yes, looks can only get u so far. Then there was Daphne Khoo, whose voice was like someone who had just breathed in not one, but two canisters of helium. SHe gave a rather pathetic rendition of "I will survive". As I told phil, Singaporeans should only sick to simpler songs and not those sung by black divas....the version was sucky and meek, but thanx to the brilliant, inaccurate comments by the judges, the Singapore crowd was swayed to vote for her. Oh well....then came Christopher Lee, your typical clean-cut choir trained boy, whose pure voice was realli great! rops to him but my only worry is to whether he will be more flexible in the final 10 where contestansts have to sing according to a theme. I think the dark horse in the comp so far has to be Candice Foo, good packaging and she looks like the sort that will improve as the competition goes on. WEll, all the best to the ppl, looking forward to Group3 in a week's time.

Btw SPF will be having a Service Idol and I think I will give it a shot if I can afford the time.

I think I've fallen into a trap I built for myself, as shadows of the past are now beginning to creep up in corners of my heart. Its making me question a lot of things right now. Somehow I noe I will still be steadfast but I just don't like thinking about it, thinking about the past, and the regrets which I bear till now.

Pri is also rather down cos now its pretty obviour that Giri won't reply her messages. She seems pretty upset, since she didn't expect GR to be this way. I mean everbody noes he's the nicest of guys. But perhaps he has this reason and perhaps he doesnt. I just hope Pri will not be so upset, though its hard to put myself in her shoes. She realli deserves so much better, and as I've always said she shouldnt look at it as if its her loss. Its his. Oh well in the meantime I'm gonna do my best to get her thru this, cos thats wat friends are for anyways.