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Killing me softly...

Killing Me Softly

Today I trudged in the function room on level 4 to help out with the ranking exercise. It was 1100hrs. 8 plus hours later I walked out completely and utterly exhausted, only to realise that I had to sit down the next day from 0930 for another ranking exercise. Man, I realli couldn't believe I had been doing the same thing for 8 whole hours. And it completely wasted my day. And brilliantly Phil is on leave tomorrow, which means that I have to go and handle the OC Ops meeting, which usually takes half the day up at least. Oh well, my only worry is dat I will fall asleep, but I know how to counter dat. Simply pretend your answering a call, whether dat of you h/p or nature...and walk out. Amazin.
And to think one actualli had to ask for permission to do this not too long ago.

He's got the whole world, in his hands

Oh yes, what did I learn today. The reason why people suck up so much. Cos their fate, their monthly pay, their very livelihood is determined by their supervisor. How sucky is this? Maybe the working world is not as rosy as it seems, maybe schools are better, cos the fact is your exam marks speak for everythin and no matter how much you hate/like the teacher, no matter how much else you do outside of the exampaper, it will not matter. Girls should realli do NS and then they realise that the physical part of it is nothing. Then again, most ppl are prob ok with NS, except for disgruntled, mongrel banshees like me.
Trust me. I know.
Its realli crazy how power is concentrated in the hands of so few. I mean having a higher rank gives nobody any right to judge over others. How on earth would they know how much effort/work or how little the people work? Some people are born sucker-uppers, they don't do much but what little they do they purposely "frame" in front of their bosses. Some people are hard workers, but prefer not to go,and shamlessly, display it to other people. So how are the bosses suppose to justly reward everybody? How do they know how much struggle a person puts thru that may or may not contribute to the quality of his work.
For all u know, the very person whom u percieve as lazy, could be holding two jobs, feeding a family, an ailing parent.....sigh.
Its all very sad.
My bosses were actually asking me for recommendations of the people in the list. Hmmmm....jut goes to show how much they take notice of the people. To be honest I don't think they know even half of the people around them. Oh well...suit themselves lar. Mini told me last weekend about how the Commander at his camp actually knows him by name. Dats where the difference lies, between a leader in the eyes, and a leader of the heart.
Even if a leader at heart is not all that successful, the very way that he leads endears him to his followers no matter wat. Even though those under him may eventually surpass him, they will never lose their respect for him,and will always see him as a leader - me

Alas, that is not to be, at least in the cage I go to every morning that is the workplace.

Oh well, dats basically been the main issue hanging in my mind all this while. Sigh, the world is full of such callous adults.

And I'm scared.

Of turning into one of them.

P.S. Btw, Oasis' "don't go away" is one hell of a song.

Out.

posted by Me @ 1:35 AM