Looking for a light

Sometimes your one dream, when it comes true, turns out to be the biggest nightmare. At least that's what I feel now, I have no idea how else to say it. I was trying so hard to hold it all together, because I knew I had to get things across, and get things done. But in the end, I could not hold it any longer, and tonight must have been the first time I was left crying, alone in my car, letting it all go.

I am so tired, and so worn out, so discouraged, so demoralised, so disappointed in myself. Its getting so hard, I'm just waiting for the next blow to come.

I really hope to get uplifted soon. So sorry for this post and the one before, but I need to say it, cos its hard to try to be strong when in fact you're probably the weakest one around.

Out.

posted by Me @ 12:16 AM