Distance
I was realli very impressed by how the team of young 'uns pulled together yesterday even though they were subjected to what I must say was a horrendous end training work out. But well I was realli impressed with how proactive they were in pushing each other on, and how without the steady influence of the year 2s, the leaders emerged within the team.
So good for us.
And also, yesterday was the loudest school anthem I have heard, much louder than when the whole team is singing it. I guess when you are small in number you just have that much more to prove. Just like good old arts fac.
Anyways,
Lately I have been thinking hard about coaching and everytyhing that comes wif it. After all the reading I have done with the likes of JM, AF, AW and even the older ones like paisley, Shankly and clough, one thing runs constant, that they always set a distance btw themselves and their men. For one, they have to because of the decisions they have to make, moving their men like checkers on a field, and unfortunately if they allow common sense to be overtaken by kinship, they will falter. Just look at what happened to Sven and Beckham.
So yeah, for me this year I told myself that I cannot be so close to anyone in particular anymore, though at times I want to, I simply cant do it, cos at the end of the day nobody but me, not even the other coaches, has to make the decision of choosing the players, cutting some and keeping some. I remember last year, cos of the mistakes I made, I had to realli suffer emotionally during the posting results, and when I had to cut the team and all. It realli sucked to the max for myself cos I could not realli unload it to anybody.
So this year, it has been hard the other way around, cos Im very much a social person, wanting to talk to evrybody and knowing everybody. So its kinda hard to try and focus on the job of being a coach and not socialise as much as I want to. I think this year I have done a better job at talking to everybody, but its definitely less in depth than last year when I was much closer to some people than I was to others. Nerverthless I have grown to accept this and will continue to work on it. I realise the issue here is the acceptance of boundaries and territories. What XL said yesterday was right, about boundaries and all, and it left me with a greater sense of conviction with my approach.
The other issue on my mind is the increasing sense of isolation I am experiencing in these past few months. Suffice to say, nobody i know has a similar lifestyle and schedule, and most of the stuff I am doing is done alone. Hence there is a lack of someone there to completely empathise and relate to me. Which kinda sux. But I guess that when I deceided to take this step, this was bound to come into play.
So yeah dats about it for now, mixed and confused at times, by beyond all the smoke, fog and haze I think I can see my destination, i think.
Oh yes, and as promised this is a song I love the words for, first heard it at the grammys.
Out.
So good for us.
And also, yesterday was the loudest school anthem I have heard, much louder than when the whole team is singing it. I guess when you are small in number you just have that much more to prove. Just like good old arts fac.
Anyways,
Lately I have been thinking hard about coaching and everytyhing that comes wif it. After all the reading I have done with the likes of JM, AF, AW and even the older ones like paisley, Shankly and clough, one thing runs constant, that they always set a distance btw themselves and their men. For one, they have to because of the decisions they have to make, moving their men like checkers on a field, and unfortunately if they allow common sense to be overtaken by kinship, they will falter. Just look at what happened to Sven and Beckham.
So yeah, for me this year I told myself that I cannot be so close to anyone in particular anymore, though at times I want to, I simply cant do it, cos at the end of the day nobody but me, not even the other coaches, has to make the decision of choosing the players, cutting some and keeping some. I remember last year, cos of the mistakes I made, I had to realli suffer emotionally during the posting results, and when I had to cut the team and all. It realli sucked to the max for myself cos I could not realli unload it to anybody.
So this year, it has been hard the other way around, cos Im very much a social person, wanting to talk to evrybody and knowing everybody. So its kinda hard to try and focus on the job of being a coach and not socialise as much as I want to. I think this year I have done a better job at talking to everybody, but its definitely less in depth than last year when I was much closer to some people than I was to others. Nerverthless I have grown to accept this and will continue to work on it. I realise the issue here is the acceptance of boundaries and territories. What XL said yesterday was right, about boundaries and all, and it left me with a greater sense of conviction with my approach.
The other issue on my mind is the increasing sense of isolation I am experiencing in these past few months. Suffice to say, nobody i know has a similar lifestyle and schedule, and most of the stuff I am doing is done alone. Hence there is a lack of someone there to completely empathise and relate to me. Which kinda sux. But I guess that when I deceided to take this step, this was bound to come into play.
So yeah dats about it for now, mixed and confused at times, by beyond all the smoke, fog and haze I think I can see my destination, i think.
Oh yes, and as promised this is a song I love the words for, first heard it at the grammys.
Out.
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