Looking for a light

Yesterday was a complete waste of time, I cant believe I actually sat down to watch the Singapore Malaysia match, cos it was an absolute waste of time. I guess its better than watching a JC boys soccer match of course, but then this was a supposed international u-23 match and it was of a pathetic standard.

Singapore had a lot of good chances, and the way they wasted them, I began to root for Malaysia, and I realli hoped the Singapore will be made to pay for it. I know this sounds realli bad of me and all, but then again, I have always had something against teams which seem to take things for granted, whether in vj or when I watch soccer in general. Luckily for Singapore though, Agu, the 80000 dollar thief managed to get something for us.

What happened next left me cursing.

Instead of turning the screw against an obviously stretched Malaysian defence, and a defence being unable to handle Agu's strength, they started heading to the corner flag with 6 minutes to go. My gosh, and do you know what the headline was yesterday night? WE DONT PLAY FOR DRAWS - Raddy. Haiz. And after the final whistle, the absolutely wild celebrations started, as if we have done something amazing. I guess this just goes to show how poor our standards have fallen when qualifying for the semi finals of an 8 team tournament spark such wild celebrations, its crazy, I tell you, I felt sick to my stomach.

The worse thing is that our lack of desire to score the winning goal would mean that we will be facing thailand in the semi finals. And yes, youre hearing it from me first, I hope the Thais kick our ass, not cos I hate Singapore or whatever, but simply because I think we do not deserve a spot in the final.

Luckily though, the night was much better, and looking at how fluent the football was it made me have faith that I was doing the right thing watching EPL.A lot of ppl will say, stop criticising and watch Singapore soccer, but i say this, if you wanna feel fulfilled in your heart, then go ahead and watch Singapore soccer, but if you truly wanna learn more about the game, pls dont, you will learn nothing except what NOT to do.

Next week will be off for OFI course, all the way till end of the week after dat, personally Im not scared lar, I think I have prepared myself reasonably, and if I am lagging, I will just make sure I work my ass off compared to the other course attendees. But ok lar, timings at runs, and especially pull ups have realli improved.

Only got two worries, the first being how I am gonna get there by 7am on the first morning, cos its at CCK. I know this sounds absurd, but I am kinda hoping I can stay in over there, sometimes miss the life of being a recruit, just chilling and exercising everyday, I shall ask the PNS office tomorrow if I can do it. My second worry would be the girls of course, call me a control freak, but everything I have done and usually do has been done cos its part of a bigger picture, so I realli dunno how things will be these coming two weeks. I dont want the program to be messed up, and also I want the program to be done at the correct intensity. But I trust KR and Nat lar, and I believe they will do a good job. Just realli sux when Im not there, but I guess I will need this mental break somehow, even if it means that I will spend this break exercising. I hope I can escape at the soonest possible time though and hopefully join them at training.