Looking for a light

Today we had the 7-a-side competition and we finished 4th, beaten in the semi-finals by some old fogey team in the game we totally deserved to win. U noe the case of us shooting like 15 million shots on goal and them taking 1, yes 1 shot, which deflected off Fahmi and into goal. Sux. But its good to be in competition and play, enjoy my soccer a bit, the ground didnt help but i think i gave a fair account of myself. My head has a big balookoo after the first match, just managed to make it subside when i reached home. I am pooped lar, but I will be ok, the coming week is an exciting one, so looking forward to it.

I realised that my r'ship with Tan has grown worse and worse as time has passed by, and sometimes I wonder why I even bother taking the brunt of the screwing when I can just avoid it. But I realise that me living now, for wateva amount of time on this earth, must be a time where I can make a difference, and I always tell myself that I will try my best to touch as many people's lives positively as possible. I think that is the measure of one's life lived successfully. I hope one day, the girls will look back and think that hey, Az realli thought me a thing or two about this game called soccer. Even if i can impart one thing on the girls, I think that is a success. right now, beyond Uni, no other thing is more impt than looking after these girls, perhaps, its this desire in me to have alwyas wanted to look after a little sis, which was never fulfilled in my family of cos, which I am living through now, but I must say it is at times rather overwhelming.

The SR game is next week, and I told myself I have to prepare properly for the match, make sure the girls are totally au fait with all the goings on. I hope and pray that all the hard training will come to something, and that we can do well. More imptly, I hope that Claudia and Shi Min can stay, my heart will just break if they cant. No man gets left behind rite?

Well, on dat note, I have made up my mind to just stick it thru, and let Mr Tan screw me as much as he wants, cos I noe that all this will be worth it. 20 years from now, this batch of girls and me will be sitting down having a nice bbq and laughing at ourselves thinking about how mad JC days were.

To all the soccer girls who are reading this, thanx a lot for everything, and for teaching me how to live.

Out.

posted by Me @ 9:33 PM